While I was at my mother’s funeral, my husband changed the locks on our mansion and texted: “You took too long to grieve. Your stuff is on the porch.” I came home to garbage bags beside his girlfriend’s luxury car. I didn’t cry. I called the private security company that protected the estate—my father owned it. Minutes later, their access was revoked, her car was being towed, and I smiled: “You have five minutes to leave my property.”

The scent of rubbing alcohol and wilting lilies is something that never truly washes out of your clothes. It weaves itself into the fabric, a permanent olfactory reminder of the precise moment your world began to hollow out. For three relentless, agonizing days, I had been breathing it in. I sat beside my mother’s bed in the private palliative care wing of Cedars-Sinai, watching the steady, cruel descent of her vital signs. My mother, Eleanor Vance, was a woman who had carved an empire out of granite, a woman who commanded boardrooms with a whisper. Now, her breaths were shallow, fragile things, fluttering like trapped moths against her ribcage.