I asked my ex’s new wife to keep my baby when I died. What she confessed to me at the door broke me more than the cancer.

“…but Laura must never know what for.”

Time shattered.

I don’t know how long the silence lasted after hearing his voice come out of Laura’s phone—cold, clear, and calm—pronouncing the most horrific sentence a mother could ever hear about her daughter. Maybe it was two seconds. Maybe it was a hundred years. I only felt Sophia grow heavier in my arms. It was as if my body suddenly understood it had to hold her with every ounce of strength I had left, because the world had just shown me it wanted to tear her away.