At our family’s New Year’s Eve gala, my aunt ripped away my oxygen mask and sneered, “Your lung condition is just a stunt to avoid drinking,” while the room laughed as I struggled to breathe. My brother mocked my blue lips as “dramatic makeup,” convinced I was faking it to escape the family business. Then a quiet guest at the end of the table stood up and seized the champagne bottle. His face turned ice-cold as he examined the liquid: “Who was the last person to hold this bottle of wine?”

My chest heaved, my ribs straining against my silk dress until I felt the seams begin to pull. My vision began to blur at the edges, a dark, pulsing vignette creeping in from the corners of my eyes. I reached for the ice bucket, my fingers clawing at the white linen tablecloth, trying to retrieve my mask, my lifeline.