MY MOTHER CRIED AT MY BROTHER’S GRAVE FOR EIGHT YEARS… UNTIL YESTERDAY, WHEN I SAW HIM WORKING BEHIND THE COUNTER AT A 7-ELEVEN AS IF HE HAD NEVER DIED. WHEN HE LOOKED UP, HE LOOKED ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYE AND SAID: “DON’T TELL DAD YOU SAW ME.”

I sat in the car for a few minutes, my hands tightly gripping the steering wheel, my breath short and shallow.

It doesn’t make sense. None of this makes sense. My brother was dead. We buried him. I heard the dirt falling on the casket. I heard my mother’s screams. I saw it all… or at least, I believed I had.