Days after burying my husband, I had already booked a year-long cruise. My son dumped his pets in my house on my birthday. “Babysit them. You’re just waiting to die anyway, be useful,” he laughed. His wife stared at my diamond ring. “Give us the ring for our business. It’s selfish to keep it,” she ordered. I smiled. By sunrise, when the cruise ship sailed away from Miami, my absence would begin unraveling the comfortable life they had built upon my constant sacrifices.

Ernest, my husband of forty years, died on a Tuesday that felt as cold and unforgiving as the marble slab they eventually laid him on. The sky over Miami that morning was a bruised, heavy purple, threatening a rain that never quite fell. I buried him in his best white linen shirt—the exact one he wore on that sweltering July afternoon when we signed the mortgage papers for our very first home. His hands, rough from decades of labor but gentle enough to braid our granddaughter’s hair, were clasped over his chest. I had meticulously wrapped his wooden rosary around his knuckles, and tucked a slightly faded, dog-eared photograph from our 1998 trip to Key West into his breast pocket. In that picture, he was leaning against a railing, laughing uproariously at a terrible joke I’d just whispered—a moment of pure, unguarded, spectacular joy.