For nine months, my husband kept telling me, “You can handle it yourself.” So when our daughter was finally born, I did exactly that. Three hours later, Derek stormed into the hospital demanding to know why nobody had called him. I looked him in the eyes and said, “You’re not late for her birth. You’re late for us.” Then my lawyer walked in carrying the papers I had quietly signed weeks ago.

Chapter 1: The Waiting Room of Ghosts

“YOU’RE NOT LATE FOR HER BIRTH, DEREK. YOU’RE LATE FOR US,” I WHISPERED, LOOKING AT THE MAN WHO HAD ABANDONED ME FOR NINE MONTHS, ENTIRELY UNAWARE THAT THE WOMAN STANDING BEHIND MY HOSPITAL BED WASN’T A DOCTOR, BUT A PREDATORY DIVORCE ATTORNEY HOLDING THE REMAINS OF HIS LIFE IN A MANILA FOLDER.
But to truly understand the sheer, catastrophic magnitude of that moment in the hospital room—to comprehend the absolute, freezing devastation I unleashed upon the man I had vowed to love until death—you have to understand the slow, suffocating, psychological death of the woman I used to be.