A year after burying my husband, I went to the cemetery to change his flowers, and the groundskeeper told me without looking up, “There’s no one here anymore.” I thought it was a cruel joke, a paperwork mix-up… until he opened the ledger and I saw that Gabriel’s remains had been moved with an authorization signed by my mother-in-law. That afternoon, I realized I hadn’t been mourning a dead man, but a lie.

“And then?”

“He disappeared.”

Silence fell over us.

An unbearable silence.

“Do you think he was kidnapped?”

“I don’t know.”

“Is he dead?”

“I don’t know.”

That answer destroyed me.

Because after mourning him for a year…

I was losing him again.

Once more.