MY MOTHER SPENT EIGHT YEARS WEEPING AT MY BROTHER’S GRAVE… UNTIL YESTERDAY, I SAW HIM WORKING THE REGISTER AT A 7-ELEVEN AS IF HE HAD NEVER DIED. WHEN HE TURNED AROUND, HE LOOKED ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYE AND SAID: “DON’T TELL DAD YOU FOUND ME.”

In a corner, there was an open backpack with folded clothes and a small box of pills. On the table, a burner phone, a notebook, and a handgun. I saw it and froze. Ivan followed my gaze. “I’m not going to use it on you,” he said. “What happened to you?” It wasn’t one question. It was many.