My son-in-law called me crying: “Your daughter didn’t survive the delivery.” I rushed to Mercy General Hospital, but when I tried to enter room 212, he blocked my path, gripped my shoulders, and whispered: “You don’t want to see her like this. Trust me.” Then I saw something in his eyes worse than grief: fear… and I realized that night they weren’t just hiding a goodbye from me, but the truth.

When we entered again, but now into another clinic—safer, private, and clean—the sky was starting to lighten in a gray line behind the buildings. Grace was taken for observation. The baby was taken to the nursery for a few hours to check his breathing. I was left in a small lounge with terrible coffee and clothes smelling of old smoke and hospital.